So sometimes I get in the mood to write. I say to myself “I should go blog” then I think, “that is silly I haven’t posted in months, I have to update people first” to which I reply “I keep people updated on Facebook“  “Then why should I blog people already know what is going on.” “Because facebook status’s are too short for your verbose tendencies”. “Good point self, I shall go blog”

And so this is a post that has very little in the way of updates, but just what is going on in my little pea brain right now.

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I am a procrastinator. I know you are shocked, given the status of the blog. I always have grand ideas when I go to bed. Tomorrow I shall blog, and sew, do fun educational things with Alex, and get that bathroom cleaned etc… And then Tomorrow comes and I just don’t do it.

Now you are a very kind soul to say that it is because I have 2 very little ones, and so I shouldn’t be hard on myself. If I manage a shower I should consider it a good day.  And I use that as an excuse for procrastination all the time. But the truth is. I would have the time to do all that stuff most days. Alex goes to bed at 8, Kalea usually by 9. Both nap during the day. It isn’t like I don’t have any down time.  My sweet baby girl even sleeps all night long! I am quite rested for a mom.

I see those wonderfully organized moms on TV, have amazing kids, clean houses and crafty things in the works with a gourmet meal on the table and get discouraged. I want to be them NOW. And trust me I fail miserably. Probably because I don’t have the same “writers” they do. I have come to realize that I just have to take it slow and step by step to get organized. I came across the verse Heb 12:11 today (thank you FaceBook news feed)

“No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”

I am determined to take this to heart. Here are the disciplines I plan on working on.

  • I want to have a tidy house (we will work on clean later, baby steps)
  • I want to eat better. Exercise more and lose this blessed baby weight
  • I want to blog consistently.

I love to pretend that I am that organized wonder mom who can be creative and efficient and that “worth far above rubies” Prov 31 woman. And I am convinced I will be… Tomorrow.  But until then I will be a  Heb 12:11 kind of gal.

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